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Korean study… hits a Korean wall

LOL. I’d been doing really well in Korean self study. Memorized like 500 new words! Got a couple of books that covered the gap between intermediate and advanced. 

It’s a known thing here that the jump from intermediate to advanced is tough. Why? Bc most books are focused on the beginner levels. By the time you are comfy with intermediate, they assume you need the high powered advanced level… never mind the fact that intermediate is it’s own level…  

For example, in the set I was using before, I already knew 1/2 of the words in the intermediate books.  But when I opened the advanced books, I knew *none* of the words. Or maybe 1 in 10. A far cry from knowing 1/2… and also the book jumped to giving a word and all of its 5-6 different meanings. Whoa, that’s a lot to handle in self-study!
So I found a couple of books to bridge that gap. Yay and hooray. I was happy. I plugged along in the noun section and memorized and memorized and memorized. Reading newspaper articles became possible, woot. 

And then I got to the verb section. And strangely… my brain had a really hard time parsing and memorizing Korean verbs. It is SO MUCH EASIER to parse and get to be root term and therefore memorize Korean words based on Chinese characters. 

So now my memorizing is slow and frustrating. I get words mixed up a lot. It’s disheartening. But of course I continue. I am on #7 of the word cards!!

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my deceptively muscular body

CW: body image, exercise for weight loss

So, what most people don’t know about my body is how it is a lie. I appear to be incredibly muscular and fit, even though I’m not.

I constructed that sentence very carefully — I mean that I appear to be muscular and healthy and fit… when my body has major weaknesses at the basic level.

Case in point: I have clearly defined abdominal muscles. I really do. In photos you can see them. And I know that a large part of why people who don’t have PT backgrounds view me as healthy is because of my defined abs.

But I can’t do a single sit-up.

I know the reason why I can’t do a sit-up — my abdominal muscles were cut and torn apart in surgery about 8 years ago. The fact that I can even do partial sit-ups is wonderful and I am grateful. But I would really like to be able to do a sit-up.

This vague whininess was prompted by me searching my apartment for something to hold down my feet so I could leverage against that and do a sit-up. I couldn’t find anything 😦 but it’s okay. I do crunches when I use the exercise equipment at the park and it’s okay. There’s a bar that I brace my feet against. But I would love to be able to do a sit-up.

Similarly, my biceps are fairly well-defined. I do work on those; it’s important to me. And my legs are tight and muscular. But I still have tricep flab and I still can’t do a sit-up.

So, don’t be fooled by people who appear to be fit. I’m sure most of us are hiding these secrets too — muscles for show, muscles that look good but don’t help us with actual fitness.

I can only attribute this muscular body type to genetics, as I certainly haven’t done much to deserve it. I have my father’s genes — I gain muscle easily… and when I don’t do the upkeep, it turns to fat easily too. Part of my exercise regime is to keep the muscle from turning into fat 😛

I’m a size 2 (or maybe 0 now that I’ve consistently hit my target weight of 115 pounds) but don’t be fooled. A lot of my appearance is the complement of being thin enough combined with being muscular enough. Evidently I have the genes to make it show where it counts (where people care about) but that doesn’t mean that I am fit or healthy, just that I am favored in the body lottery.